Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Wordless Wednesday: Happy Halloween


Monday, October 29, 2012

8 Weeks to Clean Eating Challenge

A few weeks ago I saw a post on facebook for a healthy eating challenge.  I decided to try my luck and apply and out of 279 applicants, I was chosen to work with Amber from Amber's Fitness and participate in her 8 Weeks to Clean Eating Challenge.  If you are not familiar with her story please stop by her blog or Facebook Page.  She is truly inspirational and I am very excited that she is my coach.  This is something that I needed and a way to get "me" back. The group centers around team building, personal development and accountability. We have weekly conference calls, we are set up with an accountability partner and we must remain active within the group page in order to continue onto the next week. We also have a required reading that we must read each week with the focus on personal development. 


Today marks the big day that me and the other 49 group members will set out on the clean eating journey. Each week Amber will provide us with a challenge, free day, and a focus.  As we progress, each week builds on the previous challenge so that by week 8 we will be practicing all 8 habits.  For week 1 our challenge is to get rid of all of the junk food in our home and to replace it with healthier food options.  No cakes, chips, cookies, ice cream, wine and all of that good stuff.  Sounds simple right?  A few other tips she provided to us was to figure out our proper caloric intake, drink a ton of water and do not skip breakfast.  I will post weekly about the challenge and how I am doing and also update with photos.  I asked Mr to snap a few shots of me so that I can have some before and after photos.  OMG why did I do that...if you ever need a wake up call in terms of your weight, take a few pictures..Good Grief.  I refuse to put the side profile up here.  Well I'm on my way to getting me back and taking it one day at a time.  Wish me luck! 
Goal: To have my Sassy Wife T fit again and not inadvertently conform into a half top 

Saturday, October 20, 2012

Getting "Me" Back

A few days ago I tweeted....
"I'm learning fast that it's easy to lose yourself after becoming a mommy! How do you find a balance?"
So naturally this prompted this post.  I feel like a completely different person. A new woman and I can honestly say I'm not quite satisfied with who she is.  To all of my mothers out there will I ever return to myself.... because right now I'm stuck in limbo.  Will the old Brandi become just that..the old me? Is this the time to reinvent self because you will never be the person you were before the baby?  I love being a mommy and a wife but outside of these roles I am Brandi; a woman who loves pink, wearing heels, anything fashion, wine tastings, event planning and a good girls night out every now and then.  I'm not sure where that woman went so I've mentally filed a missing person report.  After three months postpartum can I still chalk these feelings up to hormones? I guess some of the things that have me feeling this way is my weight, good grief my belly should have her own name! I had this misconception that "she" would shrink back down shortly after the birth but now I see it's going to take some hard work to get her back to being "apart" of me again.  What happened to my hair??  After the birth it was so nice and luscious... simply beautiful.  About two weeks ago it just started shedding.  It was like something was literally eating my hair especially around the edges! The sad part about it is that there was nothing that I could do but allow it to take its course. My stylist did offer me some advice on how to slow down the shedding.  Moving onto my feet, yup I'm not sure what happen to my nice arches they somehow disappeared; however, I did find about a half inch of growth on them (sigh).  It took time to build up my shoedrobe and now those shoes are just sitting pretty in my closet.  I'm so happy that all of these things are superficial and with time I will be able to fix but at the moment this is what I am dealing with.  I will be honest and say that I did have a hard time deciding whether to publish this post.  After struggling with infertility for so long and then finally being blessed with one of the most precious baby girls in the world and I just can't seem to get-it-together.  The great thing is that I have figured out the problem and have written down the steps that I need to do in order to overcome these challenges.  So mommies is this something that you went through that no one talks about? What advice do you have for a new mommy?

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

"Buyers Remorse"

Hello Folks:

I've been out of the loop for quite sometime and although I could offer you an excuse I will be honest and tell you it was out of pure laziness.  I would often think of my blog and become depressed.  I never knew that I would have such an emotional connection to this virtual space of mine when I set out on this blogging journey.  I simply wanted to share and tell my story.  One of being a woman, a wife and my struggles with infertility.  Truth is when I became pregnant I was overjoyed for myself but felt a sense of pain for my followers who are still going through the struggle.. so I regressed.  I abandoned my blog out of guilt.  Guilt over my joy of finally sustaining a pregnancy.  I know to some this may sound hypocritical but it's the truth.  I expressed my thoughts to my sister and she offered me some advice.  She told me to look at it in a more positive tone and that I would probably be offering those women hope and strength.   So now that my little bundle of joy is here, I want to share her with the world.  I want to share our story of struggle, resilience, joy and every other emotion that comes with the journey from infertility to motherhood.  Over the next couple of weeks my space will be undergoing some reconstructive surgery.  I'm trying to figure out the best way to move my blog forward which may include a new design and possibly relocating to WordPress.  Please excuse my dust while I figure out the goal and direction of my blog.

Here are some updated pictures of Miss. Brianna.  She is getting so big!